Well. I have not written in a while and my last post was, er — quite depressing and er– yeah … so… let’s move on. Anyways, yes, life is happier now as usual. I think there is a quote like “However long the night is, the dawn will break”, something to that effect and it is quite appropriate in this situation. Whenever I do get the random low, depressed moods, it really seems like the biggest deal in the world and it really does feel completely hopeless. But then, I hold on and emerge a brighter, stronger individual. I just studied hardxcore for some of summer, and so returning back to school, naturally I took a break. And another break. And another. Get the point? Laziness is getting the best of me lately. And Facebook and other useless time suck websites on the internet. CURSES. I have secondary applications to finish for dental school. One is even due WEDNESDAY AND I HAVE YET TO PUT A MAJOR DENT IN IT. It’s only like 5 questions though. Stuff like “describe your best character trait” etc. type, which is always a bit difficult and everyone always sugar coats it in order to make them sound even more oh so wonderful. I killed the DATs which I am grateful for, but the only thing between me and completing my applicating are the 5 checks waiting to be mailed out, which can only happen after my mother puts money into my bank account, and the Health Professions Office at Rutgers. They apparently never saw the class I re-took over the summer because it didn’t appear on my transcript, so they calculated my science GPA wrong, and i was freaking <.1 SHORT OF THE FREAKING SCIENCE GPA MINIMUM THAT THEY REQUIRE. SERIOUSLY?! Naturally, I sucked up to them and tried as politely as I could to try to get them to see that oh yes I do in fact have replaced a D with a freaking A so hurry up and change it ASAP SO THAT I CAN GET AN INTERVIEW. This is seriously never ending and they are just making me wait longer to finish my app which means my chances of getting into to dental school this cycle are getting lower and lower as each day goes on…
ANYWAYS. I am denying that my laziness is in fact senioritis. It doesn’t really feel like senior year for me as I will still have at least 4 more years of schooling ahead of me. And also admitting the fact and saying senioritis out loud may affect me even more and make it worse, which is DEFINITELY NOT A GOOD THING. I need to just really buckle down STARTING TOMORROW. I tell myself that maybe it was because of last week’s crazy schedule going from Monday to Wednesday, etc. I always tell myself that once I have a good routine, I settle down and get to work. Which will start tomorrow.
Classes will be good hopefully. Most will be easy. Orgo lab will be annoying, but not too horrible since studying Orgo for the DATs is helping tremendously for Orgo lab and I am so grateful for it. I seriously would have no idea what is going on in that if it weren’t for the good old DATs. I am dancing A LOT. Like…really a lot lot. Ballet I, Modern Dance I 4x a week. RPDC maybe 3x a week. I want to keep trying to go out to Fr3sh every week so that’s another 2 hours every week. I hope I don’t get in way over my head and slack off on my studies due to it. But I will figure it out once things get rolling at a constant pace, I know my limits and how much I can handle. Systems physiology is fine except for the professor. Oh my goodness, her accent is killing me, and all the material is pretty boring right now. We went through the cell and the plasma membrane, which has been drilled into my head within the past half a year, but I am not going to use that as an excuse to not work hard in it. I will still read it and try to really learn it as if I had never seen it before. I can’t wait to really start getting into the real good stuff about every little detail about everything so that my science Tourettes can fully return. 
I have decided to return to Starbucks in order to get more studying done. I lived at Starbucks for 2 entire weeks straight and it really got to be a bit too much. But I focus so much better there, with just my headphones plugged in, listening to my music, sitting at a wooden table, freezing my ass off and just learning, and the occasional people watching break. 
But yeah, I am going to keep making it a habit because it will only do me good. The only problem is that I will have to keep buying Starbucks drinks, and there is a Chipotle, haagen daaz, jamba juice, and various other delicious food places around. But hey, studying hard makes me lose weight so maybe it’ll balance out right? Hah.
Anyways, one particular thing has been coming up recently in my thoughts. I won’t disclose on what it exactly is, but I just feel that maybe it is about time, maybe I am ready and I am getting a bit impatient because I am seeing this EVERYWHERE AROUND ME. I can’t wait for when it finally happens and I know how excited I will be.
So once again. I stay up late being unproductive in school work wasting my time on useless websites such as blogs and Facebook. GET IT TOGETHER STACEY. DO YOUR SECONDARY APPS, READ FOR SYSTEMS PHYS!!!!!!!!
I really wish there were more hours in a day.
BTW, check out briether.wordpress.com
He is an amazing writer and a good friend. Hilarious and a very unique, intelligent, caring individual who will go far in life and I believe that with all my heart. He once wrote how he was jealous of people who knew where they were headed. Well he doesn’t know that I frequently become jealous of him because of his humor and way with words. He is just a very interesting person and I really wish I had that sort of Type A personality. I sort of do and I sort of don’t. But that’s a whole ‘nother story.
Time to go to sleep feeling so guilty about being unproductive. I am going to be SO TIRED TOMORROW IN SYSTEMS PHYS AND THE CLASSROOM WILL BE FREEZING AS USUAL. Maybe that will keep me up, or maybe the material will be boring and maybe I will actually fall asleep in class for the first time in a very long time. Until next time.
Au revoir!
